Yeah. I think no one is actually reading this. No big surprise as I don't have any friends here. And I seem to forget update this. Is there anybody out there?

I had a life for a short while. Quite actually June 12th - 16th when this festival took place (well 12th-14th) and I was there yet againg doing some work. It was boring this year but afterparty at 14th was amazing. I met two amazing people who me and my friend had seen at the festival area dragging this stuffed toy dog with them. My friend just went to them and asked why they were dragging it around like that. We just hang with them and after the closing time we walked with them back to the town. Or at least tried to walk to the town. We made firts stop near the club we had just been in and all honesty, I don't remember why we did stop. But I wrote to that dog-owner diary as he wanted us all to do. There was like eight of us walking (something similar happened last year except all were workers) and almost we all wrote something. I at least got place to stay at Helsinki when ever I am there. That's very positive. But I think I really had to move in Helsinki as I seem to be there all the time. July is full of Helsinki-centered trips.

Anyway, we dropped to eat nearby gas station (or what ever it's called). It was cool just hang. That happens rarely to me. Eventually w had to leave as our wake-up call happened to be at 10am and it was almost 5am or something like that. We left the other there as their tent was in camping area (where they couldn't go because it was closed and they could only get it the following day) and got couple hours sleep before we were kicked out from the school we were at.

Since the trains were not moving because of the strike me and my friend had to rely on buses. It was real torture for eight hours. Two times we had to change bus and at the second time the bus was late twenty minutes or so. Pure torture. I hated it and so did everyone else.

So that was our Monday. From 1pm to 9pm only travelling from Seinäjoki to Espoo. And I wasn't even home yet!! So on Tuesday I had to to drag my packs for last time from Espoo to Helsinki at the bus station and travel on all the way to home. More torture but on the bright side, I was eventually at home welcomed by my own bed where I dropped and slept on what seemed like eternity.

My Midsommer festivies considered, surprise, surprise, being at home. At HOME!! So lame. Even my little sister had something better to do than I.

I'm so boring. And bored.

Night before last was very intresting for me. I wrote nine hours straight doing little else during that time. Got little over 9000 words in one sitting reaching 10838 words. Amazingly good comparing the word amount I had before that what was 1748. I was amazed about it before I fell asleep.

Now I have reached 13k and hopefully it grows to more from that. I should be sleeping right now as the time is 0:58 and I have to wake up at in five hours. Why, oh why I have to take job just to this month? Argh. Well, what's done is done. No can do. Library awaits me in seven hours to come.

I think I promised somekind of update on my Nanowrimo story... Eh.

Well, for starters it's not going so well as I planned it to go. Now I'm in deep **** and don't know how to write myself out of it. I turned the whole thing in so odd direction that its impossible to decide where to go with it. Goodbye dear plan and welcome new plan that I don't know yet.

And I'm slow this year. Not that I'd be actually trying to get that 50k as I want to have but it doesn't stop my world if I don't get it. I have so much to do, too many things on my life at the same time that I'm not cabable to do much. School's exhausting me down, I'd love to sleep all the time (because I don't seem to get sleep at nights or ever other time) and so on.

But yeah, I'm hanging on there. Writing, planning, doing school and work and trying to have a life once in a while. Maybe it's gets easier when I get some of my school work out of my way. Dunno yet.

I'll try more frequently write here. But don't be surprised if i forget... I tend to do that xD

I've had been too lazy apparently to update this. Anyway, I'm turning new leaf on this and try my hardest to update my progress as Nanowrimo is on. I'm not dead... yet. 

Provinssirock festival at Seinäjoki was last weekend. Now it sadly over and I still can't understand it fully. I had so much fun at there that I really didn't want to leave at all. I was working at there as a volunteer and our little workgroup was the best. I met very wonderful people and I miss them already. Especially one man who was very cool, his life has been very interesting and I envy him a little bit. I think I never experience anything like he has experienced in his life. I have a crush on him too, lolz. I miss him, dearly. But I get to meet him on later time, maybe in august or september, dunno yet.

From Friday to Sunday at the work time we weren't allowed to drink alcohol, but when there were this ending thing at the club called Rytmikorjaamo, we got free drinks, those who were working. We didn't get lift back to the school where we were staying at so we walked there and in the end it was good idea. I got to talk with this guy and we had lots and lots of fun wit our group of eight. We drank whiskey, this guy, Aki, was already pretty wasted but was even more. We found to the school and there were others who too were pretty wasted. There were over ten of us, drinking whiskey, laughing and joking around. Some time later few guys left as they had to catch the train and some others went to sleep. I stayed up until we too had to leave.

Me, Aki and my lil sis walked to the train station and me and Aki talked little more and later at the station he was wondering why I was looking so good as if I hadn't drank anything, especially the whiskey. It had affected him, as he had fallen asleep and my sis went to sleep too and wasn't feeling too good when we were at the station. I was feeling very fine, I think the whiskey hadn't affected me that much even though I drank it quite much. I think I have very good stand at alcohol. Dunno.

Still yet, I had very fun weekend, whatnot I was very tired as I hadn't sleep much and not at all between Sunday and Morning night. So when I went to sleep at Monday night I woke up Tuesday at 2.30 p.m.. Lost nearly the whole day. Don't care, at least I had a very good night at sleep and wasn't so tired and my body aching had stopped.

Next year I go there again. i have to because I loved it and I don't want to miss it, not ever again.

My so fine day yesterday was cut with the accident. I was on a bus, on my way to night school when something happened and I even didn't realize what happened. A dog got under that bus. It was horrible. There we were, twenty something passengers and driver, stopped side of the road, waiting the police to come. Some of the passengers left, some stayed, me including. I went out with some people there and I saw that dog, laying there, unmoving and I felt sick. I think that the owner of the dog wasn't happiest man in the world to watch his dog to suffer from the pain, dying slowly on there, sidewalk.

We waited half an hour and on that time the owner came and said the dog had died, police hadn't came yet and the driver told us who had stayed, to go on with the next bus.

Later in the evening, when I wasn't able to go to my remaining classes, and decided to go home, the same driver was again on the road. He looked okay, but what I heard from his phone calls (I sat behind him), there is going to be consequences. Don't know what, but the owner of that dog is partially guilty as the dog was on loose, running after some other dog, coming between two houses straight under the bus.

And so rest of my day was ruined.

I try not to think too much of it but I can't get rid of the picture that's on my brain. I want to, but I can't.

Maybe it will ease eventually. I hope so.